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Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Back and All In

It feels so good to be back at it again here on my blog. For those that have taken an interest in what I have to say about what goes on in the sports world, I feel bad for just disappearing into the darkness without any idea of what happened or where  have been. A lot has been happening for me with work and school going on now, along with some more deep and personal situations that I needed to contemplate and break through to finally get myself back into a functioning order. One of those things was if whether or not I really wanted to become a sports writer as my career.

Like most college students and 20+ year olds, I had a moment not too long ago where I was starting to think about whether I would really be cut out to be a sports journalist. I felt like much of the thought was coming from the pulling influences from friends and family to maybe look at this and that as careers instead of being a sportswriter. Along with that, the worry of school and how I hope to do in order to get myself moving the right path started to freak me out. It started to feel like I was the train that had started to come off the tracks. Surprisingly,  my job as a security officer did not effect me in any way. In fact, it calmed my nerves (somewhat) mostly because of the people I was able to meet and get to know while working at a warehouse in Romeoville. Every now and then, I would find myself waking up the middle of the night with a harsh feeling of fear and panic deep inside my chest. I actually still get that feeling now and then. I just worry that school will not go as I hope and plan it will, which will disappoint my family and let them down even though I know they love me, and just be another guy that needs to go from job to job in hopes that something big will soon land. Truly, it is a nightmare that I know could come true.

I know I cannot predict the future and what it may hold for me. Perhaps something will come along elsewhere, or in sportswriting, or who knows. At this point, all I know is that I do enjoy being able to sit down and talk about sports and what is happening in it with those that are willing to listen and talk about it. I do feel that sportswriter is what I want. It's the path that I have finally decided upon. I do wish I could have been like many of my friends and fellow students from high school who knew what they wanted, made the plan, and are now close to closing in on that degree. Me, well I still need a bit more time to be able to complete mine due to mistakes and bad decisions that I made since coming out of high school. But I know that I will get to the top my mountain someday. You might wonder how I know that and if I know that will be. And Honestly, I have no idea, but I all I know is that I will be there with a smiling face of success after having to crawl over the rocks, glass, needles, and anything else you could think of that would seem to make a person stop. All I have ever learned is to never let anyone or anything stop you from accomplishing your dream and succeeding in life. I owe that all to my loving mother and father. I hope I have made them proud so far. I know I have (really) screwed up quite a bit in life, but I want them to always know that I could not have ever made it so far in life without them, and that one day I will pay them back somehow, someway for all that they sacrificed and have put forward for me.

Like any person, I wish I could find all the answers to my "Who, What, Where, When, Why, and How?", but I will just have to wait and see what comes at me and hope that I will be ready for it when it does. I know I missed a whole lot of big sports stories this past summer to this point, but I am now back and all in on the action of what will the be going down. It's time start Spittin Out Sports!

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